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Journals are an interesting thing...when I first started this journal, about 7 years ago, I started it because I had so much to write about at first...at least more on the intellectual and philosophical side. Since I left college my entries have been fewer and fewer...and it isn't because nothing is going on in my life, and it isn't because I have nothing to say. Those who know me in real life know that I am quite the talker and my opinions are broad and plentiful. It is more because I do not find the things I have to write as interesting as I once did. When I was in college my entries were more involved around schooling, or problems I was having with my boyfriend at the time...or it was just purely sexual all together.

As cliche, or apparent as this may sound, I'm really not the same person. I am the same in most ways, however, things that I used to talk about used to be much more scholarly in nature, now not so much. My life so far has consisted around few base things, work, dancing, the wedding, learning Japanese, and the gym.

There are many little things that occur and honestly I wish I could write about those things at the times I think of them as I find my observations to be pretty amusing...

Sometimes I wonder why I keep this journal open anymore, however, I can't bear to part with it...as little as I have written over the past few years there are still important parts of my life, such as stories, poems, photos, or things that I have written in here. The thing is, I don't want to just keep this journal open to retain those things, I also desperately want, no desperately need to write more. I internalize so many aspects of myself, my life, and my feelings because I am either too shy or am unable to express myself in a way that I feel is appropriate that I'm sure that I will eventually go mad with the need to write it or share it.

I am going to attempt to write at least once a week and allow myself to let go, externalize my thoughts and emotions, and more importantly really give myself some time to self reflect. I used to do that so much more when I had more time, now my mind just races from one thing to the next, never taking the time to slow my life down a little and really think about what I'm doing, where I'm going, and more importantly if it is something that I should or need to be doing.

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desar
Mar. 28th, 2009 02:42 pm (UTC)
I find that journals in which people just write about regular everyday things much better to read than when people try to come up with interesting things to write. It's the hidden aspects of routine life that usually has the brightest gems.
madwriter
Mar. 30th, 2009 01:23 am (UTC)
I keep trying to convince my friend clar1ssa of this. She gets on LJ to read my entries but hasn't posted in her own for nearly three years because she thinks her everyday stuff will be boring.
natalie516
Mar. 30th, 2009 02:09 am (UTC)
:-) You think so? I'll have to start writing about my more everyday things then.
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