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The weavings of an intricate mind...

*looks at the time* Lunch...I will have to get that in a minute...I know I've mentioned this before, but it is so funny how my mind is constantly running around shouting out ideas in my head, making me feel certain things, making me think certain things, causing me to understand something in a different light. I am an analyst. It's what I do. I analyze EVERYTHING, I analyze things until I have about 10+ solutions to a problem. The problem with that is that I am also a feeler. Not only do I think too much, but sometimes I feel too much as well. I know, dangerous combination, the feeling thing has been reduced quite a bit from when I was younger. It was a lot worse when I was younger, not only was I introverted, but I was a little walking bundle of emotions.

It's funny, I am older now and I have a fairly blasé demeanor towards poople and sometimes life. I am this weird combination of caring and feeling something for everyone and everything with a side of "Get the hell out of my way, I am trying to succeed in life" lol...I suppose that is really the best way to describe it. I do want to succeed in life, therefore I go after the goals I want to reach no matter how unattainable it looks to others. At the end of 2 years I want to be making $70K+, am I going to? Of course. On top of that...I am going to get my MBA, which will give me another increase in salary. That's how it works. Now, I know some peopel may think, "Why does she want to make so much money?" That's simple...I want to buy a condo/house, I want to own multiple time shares, I want to buy a new car (I have a car yes, and it is very nice, but I want a nicer one), I want to pay off my school loans, I want to travel, I want to not think about money as a problem, and I want to do it without mooching off my parents. In essence, I want to be an important person in the company I work in. I am already an important person to my friends and family, but I want more (yeah, yeah Joe...I am so demanding).

It's funny...some people see life as a challenge...or they don't want to grow because they are afraid. I wonder though...I guess I do not understand people who don't want to make something of themselves? I was just thinking...I boarder towards a Type A personality...according to this I am this:

You seem to be in the middle between the Type A and Type B personality. In this case, the middle ground is good. Your attitude to life is more of the "smell the roses" kind and you know how and when to relax. Nonetheless, you realize that picking up a challenge and competing a little bit for your place in the sun can add some spice to your life. The equilibrium is important, so don't let your hostile, aggressive, and competitive alter ego take over too often. Generally, you are easy to be around, and people tend to feel relaxed and comfortable in your presence. Yours is a very healthy attitude towards life.

Haha...one of the questions made me laugh, "People who don't know what they want get on my nerves." YES that is exactly the case...AARRGGGHHHH Honestly...it's ok sometimes...like for little things like, Not knowing what to eat, what to wear...but ALL the time??? It's like asking a grown-up, "What do you plan to do for your career" and they look at you blankly and say, "I don't know" *growl* Hmph...and I understand that is just how I feel...but once again, I do not like to be friends with people like that. They are too aggravating. One of the things I value is living your life to the fullest, to live your life completely and give it everything you've got. If I see people with potential squandering their life I just feel like they are taking up air. Ok...perhaps that is too harsh? *sigh* pent up frustration. Seriously...it does get to me though...I want everyone to be happy...and if they are happy squandering their life fine...but if they are unhappy and they don't do anything I just want to tell them, "Get a life, grow up, and deal with it already. You are taking up my precious air and space" haha...ok...maybe not the last part. :) Oooh...it's getting late...the cafeteria stops serving food at 1 :)

Hehe...one of my boss' came in to see if I was ok since my other boss is gone :D

Ahh well...I feel better! Thanks drchase *hug, kiss*


( 3 comments — Leave a comment )
Sep. 28th, 2003 08:43 am (UTC)
I don't know what I want to be when I grow up! Perhaps I just don't want to grow up!
Sep. 28th, 2003 09:17 am (UTC)
haha...but you are already retired! hahah
Sep. 29th, 2003 09:48 am (UTC)
Growing older is required; growing up is optional! HaHaHa
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