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Good chances only come around once...

that is so true...I had chances to date really great guys...and I didn't. I dated guys who are jerks and who lie...who cheat.

I sent a message to someone who I used to be friend's with. He abruptly stopped speaking to me two years ago, without a word. He told me it is because he has had a girlfriend for the past two years and he doesn't have time to mess around on the computer. He was a friend that I only chatted with on the phone for two years and I guess...he really wanted to meet me. I didn't know that. I knew he had mentioned it a few times, but I asked him if it was okay if we just kept it to the phone and he said okay. Though I liked him I was young and I did not really want to take chances. So many guys I have dated have screwed me over. I enjoyed speaking with Kiley and I wanted to keep him as a friend. A couple of years ago I asked his room-mate why Kiley didn't return my phone calls anymore...he said, "Maybe Kiley wanted something more from you, and when he realized he was not going to get it, he decided to just let you go."

(sigh) Oh well...Kiley was a really sweet guy too...

I hate it that I am still in love with Kalen. I hate it that I miss him so much. I did what I had to do...I can't go back to him...the emotional abuse in the relationship was just too much...


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Sep. 26th, 2002 01:31 pm (UTC)
I wish I could say it'll get better with time, but I don't know that.
It probably will. It hasn't been very long. I prescribe chocolate and ice cream.. :P
Sep. 26th, 2002 02:02 pm (UTC)
The funny thing is...Kalen is crazy. He sat there Tuesday and told me that I scare him and he doesn't want to be with me. So I disconnected his cell phone, which is his only means of contact with anyone. The phone was under my name, which is why I was able to do it. Then he calls me yesterday giving me his new phone number. (roll eyes) He is crazy if he thinks I am going to take him back.

My prescription for myself is lots of sex with other guys...chocolate just doesn't do it for me
Sep. 26th, 2002 02:22 pm (UTC)
It seems to me that meaningless sex with a bunch of other people wouldn't make things any better. To each their own I guess. :)
OTOH, sex is fun :P
Sep. 26th, 2002 07:54 pm (UTC)
lol...Yes I know...I think I will feel worse after it happens
Sep. 26th, 2002 04:12 pm (UTC)
I was going to prescribe beer goggles, but I see you have already prescribed yourself sex.
So uh, A/S/L?*

*I hate AOL chatrooms.
Sep. 26th, 2002 07:54 pm (UTC)
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